凯莉日记第一季

好吧，其实这篇剧评我只是想写给自己看的。看到豆瓣上评分这么低，充斥着很多人不满的评论，但我还是依然很喜欢Carrie和她的生活。

故事发生在1984年，不过我却有点不敢相信。或者说，我根本不了解时代和时尚。那个时候，interview的时尚编辑就可以是黑人女人了。可是为什么到现在，有人依然高呼"Black lives matter.""Girls just want some fundamental rights."那个时候Walt家人都是W.A.S.P.但他依然勇敢地出柜了，可是如果现在发现自己是gay还是要像小狮子一样斗争和自我思考的。那么，是这个故事纯属瞎编吗？一切都是杜撰的？我真的没法说一二，但是我觉得Things are never easy.

人这一生要寻找自我，真的是每一个人必过的槛。不管是为了去追逐自己真正喜欢的事业还是去爱自己爱的人，都真的永远不可能一下就能了得。可是人们为了走捷径，总是在犯错，也许会失去友情，失去他人乃至亲人对自己的信赖。但最重要的是，自己还是自己，不管发现自己犯了什么错，当你用真诚和充满热爱的自我对待他人，找到自己，那一切都会过去，一切都会发展，一步一步好起来的。这个道？理？，我们在大大小小的教训中其实都能知道，但是到自己真的在度过人生中的一道道槛的时候，在犯错时会忘记，但是仍会用真心去弥补。将来回想年轻时，就会觉得人生还真是印证了这个道理。

Carrie有绚烂的生活。从小到大的好朋友，Mouse、Maggie和Walt，四个人挤在小餐厅的椅子上，吃着东西，谈论爱情和学业。Carrie的妈妈在她高二时去世了，但她很像她的妈妈，无论是写作还是对曼哈顿这座城市和时尚的热爱。看到她家里她的房间的布置，是个有梦想的可爱女孩啊。衣服一套一套，从高中女生到Interview的时尚职员，衣服变的越来越花哨，我真的是喜欢她每一个阶段的衣服。爸爸是律师，虽然成了寡夫，但依然能够教育女儿们。小妹Dorrit正十分叛逆，吸大麻，喜欢性手枪乐队，但她也许其实是内心最柔软的那一个。当她用自己的方式表达不满情绪，虽然会离家出走，但在关键的时候，她也总是理解姐姐Carrie和这个家。

ohhh,最重要的爱情的部分来了，Sebastian Kydd我觉得他长得不是很帅啊，但是他和Carrie分分合合，但两个人也许在暑假里一起游泳时就已经注定要爱对方了。当他试图亲Carrie却被她推下水，也把她自己带跑时，两个人真的已经会在一起了。也许会争吵，这是必然会发生的。可当我想到两个人坐在学校的长椅，Carrie还没有怎么蜕变时，她穿着高跟鞋，画着高中女生不浓郁但也不清淡的妆和一头小卷金发时，他也梳着利落的头发，穿着黑夹克和一条长长的牛仔裤时，这真的是每个喜欢高中爱情的人都梦寐以求的场景吧。她带着不怎么张扬的挂坠，手中拿着令女生们喜爱的大笔记本；他背着黑色的书包，有着每个男生期望的身高。这也许是刻板印象吧，但一切还能再美好点吗？
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我真的真的十分喜欢那个追逐梦想，向往曼哈顿的幸运的女孩。她有朋友，有爱人。她有自己热爱的事业和生活，即使当这一切还没来到她身旁时，她已经开始在日记本上开始写下这一切了。那个夜凉如水的夜晚，她的房间被微黄的灯光温暖地充盈着，她写下了Mouse和Seth的爱情，Maggie和Walt的纠缠和她自己。She is definitely gonna have the life she wants.

最后，我想起Larissa让Carrie协助她偷衣服的故事，Larrisa怎么会缺钱呢，作为时尚编辑她的衣服也从来不会少啊，可是她自己说了，她喜欢这种刺激。虽然她也一样有时很脆弱，从来不会忘记追逐那种自己和刺激，和那种自己渴望的生活。

Carrie is always there,running and chasing her life.So should me.

麦当娜那个party上：
首先，Sebastian不是处男了，Carrie还是处女，要破处的是carrie，口口声声说这个晚上多么多么重要的是carrie，不是Sebastian。结果Sebastian很配合，很体贴，有点什么事都说没关系。而carrie呢？她不知道这个party他们杂志是来工作的吗？就为了所谓的工作把男友撂一边。为那个采访值得吗？而且在走向采访对象时Sebastian已经一张苦瓜脸了，carrie看不出来？这之前Sebastian已经一个人在喝闷酒了——典型的不开心的标志。carrie都看不出来？大概在carrie的世界里只有她自己，所有人都得无条件配合自己。但是世界不是围着她转的，最后悲剧也只能活该。

凯莉身上有很多东西，她不是完美的，也并不会让人很喜欢，第二季的结束，她没有和sebastian离开，而是选择继续留在曼哈顿，也许我，就会做出和她相反的选择。她很自信，以至于她都没有意识到她自信的有点过分，变成了自私，每次看完一部剧，都会让人喜欢上女主，因为导演总会塑造出一个值得爱，值得瞩目的形象，我不知道为什么，看完这部剧之后，我一点都不喜欢凯莉，尽管我不能否认她的身上，有一些我值得学习的地方。比如，她很上进，她可以为了自己的梦想牺牲一切，包括她爱的sebastian，她爱的父亲，她的家，但这，真的合适吗？没有什么是对还是不对，我们只是一直在寻找适合自己和自己想要的生活，我甚至不知道自己想要的生活是什么，凯莉至少知道她的梦想是当一名作家，她有天赋，我不理解编剧想表达怎样的精神，也许，它不该只是随意讲述凯莉生活的一些场景，没有多少人可以幸运到一进入曼哈顿就遇到贵人，拉瑞萨，没人多少人可以幸运到让完美的sebastian爱的无法自拔，凯莉肯定有吸引他们的闪光点。凯莉对待朋友很真诚，但是从她对待maggie和Bennet的时候，是不是有点伪善了呢？maggie只不过在她和sebastian分手之后亲吻了一下，她就大发脾气，无法容忍，这更多的是她自己作的后果，虽然maggie作为凯莉的好朋友，这样做也不应该，但那时，他们已经分手了，是因为凯莉的神经稚，她在和sebastian分开后和那个作家发生关系的时候，也是她准备参加sebastian妈妈婚礼的时候，她的形象已经在我心中变的自私了。她说maggie 希望自己是朋友的中心，我觉得她自己才是，凯莉的形象塑造让我不能觉得苟同，反而是男主sebastian，让我觉得他是非常完美的。作为一名高富帅，他真的很难得，我想现实中应该不存在这么棒的人了。他真心的爱凯莉，尽管他和年纪大的女人共度夜晚，但是他从来没有想过伤害凯莉，他一直选择包容凯莉，理解凯莉，支持凯莉，每次凯莉回头的时候，sebastian总会在原地等她，凯莉自私的以为sebastian阻挡了自己前进的脚步，而选择对她写作事业有帮助的著名作家，sebastian痛心，但是他还是让她离开，去追求自己的梦，当得知maggie怀孕后，他作为朋友，给了她很多的关怀，甚至maggie父亲认为孩子是他的，对他拳脚相加的时候，他还是在考虑maggie的感受，而没有说出真相，总而言之，sebastian是个善良的人，美丽的人，他拥有正确的价值观，他需要，值得更好的女孩爱他。也因为每个人都是不同的，才会凸显个人的特别。我们没有权利评判别人什么，因为我们自己也不是最好的。

虽然剧情有点雷，不过每集日记里面的内容很经典，值得收录下来！
不定时更新在我的日记：http://www.douban.com/note/316206188/

【S01E02 】"Lie with me"

    They say that the eyes are the window to the soul, that looking into someone's eyes is to know the truth, to know what's real. The same could be said for the city that never sleeps. It's honest and totally awesome.

    Pinocchio（匹诺曹） was a puppet that wanted to be a real boy. All he had to do was be truthful, and his wish would come true. And even then, he couldn't help but lie.

    Doing the right thing is hard. Maybe because lying is often easier than the truth. And sometimes it actually gets what you want. But at some point, like Pinocchio's nose, the lies just keep growing until it's hard to tell what's real and what's not. And we can either live in that world of make-believe or face the truth and everything that comes with it.

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【S01E03】"Read before use"

    Let's face it. Life is easier if you read the labels, like "Do not put it in dryer" "Expiration date: one week ago". Everyting we wear, everything we eat--they all have labels. The same is true for everyone we know, "Stoner（酒鬼）" "Class clown" "Well-meaning but ultimately clueless guidance counselor" and "The boy of my deams".

    Now I knew what it said on Sebastion（人名）'s label--"Contents under pressure, handle with care". Unfortunately, I never bothered to read it. That's the tricky thing about labels.

    Once in a while, they tell us everything we need to know. But most of the time, it's only a very small part of the story. Slapping a word or two on a person can make things worse. In reality, nothing is ever as simple as the label we give it.

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【S01E04】"Fright Night"

    The scarest thing in high school: when someone breaks your heart, it's such a small place that you can't avoid them. It's ironic. The time in your life when you're least capable of managing your emotions is the same time you're locked up for eight hours a day with the people responsible for those emotions in the first place. It was like I was living in my own personal horror film--"The Rise of the Boy who Broke My Heart". And apparently it was playing everywhere.

    Valentine's day is about love. Christmas is about giving. Arbor day（植树节） is about trees, I guess. I get celebrating all those things, but Halloween? Halloween is a holiday where we put on costumes and try on different versions of ourselves--the princess, the demon（恶魔）, the bird flying free.

    It's fun not to be "us", and to not have to face the reality of who we really are and the things that scare us, like our vulnerabilities（脆弱）, or what we really want for ourselves, or our fear of change and what it will inevitably（必然地） bring. Being someone else for a night can be fun or scary. Either way, it's only one night, and when the masks are off and we're being ourselves again, we have nothing to hide behind, and maybe that's okey.

    But my night in Manhattan（曼哈顿） had taught me one thing: No matter what you're going through, it's always better if you have people to share it with. I was lucky, I wasn't an island at all.

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【S01E05】"Dangerous territory"

    When we think about entering new unchartered（未知的） territory, it always comes with the idea that we forge ahead. And that's true to some degree. But often to forge ahead, we have to look back to understand what we're leaving behind. And it can be scary because behind us, there are often blind spots--things we want to ignore or couldn't even see, that can stop us from our journey forward, but only if you let them.

    At some point, you have to let go of the past and stop looking behind and embrace what comes next. I was entering new territory, moving on, letting go of the old. My mom was right: Sometimes change is good.

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【S01E06】"endgame"

    When we focus too much on our endgame（结局）, we can miss the fun of the journey, we can miss the detour（绕道） that would take us somewhere even more rewarding.

    We like to set goals, because they give us a feeling of control. But control is an illusion, because sometimes the earth moves, and we have to deal with wherever we end up, whether it's on solid ground or not.

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【S01E07】"caught"

We all feel caught at some point or another between choices. As the Band Devo（退化乐队） said, "Freedom of chioce is what we want. Freedom from choice is what we need." Having choice, at first, feels exciting, but after a while it can also be overwhelming, like we're trapped with no clear way out. If you're lucky, you might find someone is there to catch you when you finally escape the web. But most of the time, it's harder.

Some people get caught between their secrets and wanting to do the right thing, while others are caught between their desires and their ambitions.

I was faced with tough decision, for sure. But I no longer felt caught between what I wanted and what my dad wanted. I realized this was my life, and I wasn't going to have any regrets.

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【S01E08】"hush hush" 保密

We all have secrets. when we're little, they start off innocent--A hiding place, a stash（藏匿处） of candy, a hush-hush crush. But as we get older, our secrets get bigger and better.

Often what we want, what we desire is something we keep deep inside of us. Something so dear and so special, it feels too scary to let it out into the open. It's our own little secret, and therefore, safe from harm. But maybe we have to let those secrets out in order to actually really live. The fallout from those secrets being revealed is often hard, or sometimes surprising and maybe even inevitable.

I wasn't given a choice, but I think I was relieved that all my secrets were out. And even though I was scared, I was also relieved not to have to hide my feelings anymore. It wasn't much, but it's a start.

sometimes we have to fake it to make it.after a while,what's fake becomes truth

freedom of choice is what we want;freedom from choice is what we need.having choices, at first,feels exciting. after a while,it will be overwhelming.like we're trapped with no clear way out

they say that with knowledge comes power,so it's safe to assume the inverse is also true---with no knowledge comes vulnerability.
what we don't know about the people we love, or what we don't know about love,period,can be scary.but maybe that fear is ok.what is out there that is unkown can propel us to do more.